Down Under

Now I'm here and everything :) So far, everything has been okay, got here last Friday morning at 5am and have settled into my college pretty well I think, Currie Hall. Everyone is really nice and they all say hi, I got to meet all of the other international and exchange students too and they're all cool, mostly from Singapore and China but there are a couple of Americans and Germans, so that's cool. I'm living with 3 other girls in a flat, 2 of them are from the UK and the other is from Norway - they're all lovely so that's good :) The two from the UK go to Leeds and Nottingham, so that worked out well! Like having the North in one corridor.
 So, just been doing random stuff this week...had disco bowl on Monday (ten pin bowling with lots of music and neon paint), laser tag on Tuesday and then some random stuff in between, that's been cool. Also had orientation at uni too - have enrolled now as a student fully, got my classes and what not. Must email my study abroad advisor actually, which reminds me. Perth as a city is amazing and King's Park is beautiful, can't wait to get up there myself and just walk around looking at everything. I do like it here. And need to keep reminding myself of this. 
 Do miss home of course, and everyone there. I don't know if I'll ever make as close friends here as I have back at home. It's not the same, we can talk about anything, but it's still on treading stones and what not, and yeah. It's just a case of time, and I know this, but I'm just worried I guess that no one will get me again, like last time. I know I fucked up with my old flat. Thank god I made the two friends I did. To be fair, that sort of fucking up can't happen again, because everyone and everything is so different here. I'm not bothered really about going out and drinking, I don't feel comfortable to. I didn't really when I was in Sheffield. I only feel happy around my lot back in the Cotswolds and stuff, but yeah, I need to get over this. 
 I guess the thing I miss the most is having those face to face chats with the parents, friends and who ever else, who is just familiar and they know about me. I can see that I will change, both physically and mentally out here, because I just don't feel like I fit in or anything here just yet. Everyone is just so fit and atheletic, so I need to be this too. Everyone is just so chilled out and stuff. I need to be that too. I can't change my face but I know that I can change everything else about me. But I need to do it right this time. Cannot do that again. Hm.


Days like this I want to drive away
Pack my bags and watch your shadow fade
You chewed me up and spit me out
Like I was poison in your mouth
You took my light, you drained me down
But that was then and this is now
Now look at me


This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no
Throw your sticks and your stones, throw your bombs and your blows
But you’re not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no

I just wanna throw my phone away
Find out who is really there for me
You ripped me off, your love was cheap
Was always tearing at the seams
I fell deep, you let me down
But that was then and this is now
Now look at me



Now look at me I’m sparkling
A firework, a dancing flame
You won't ever put me out again
I’m glowin’, oh whoa
So you can keep the diamond ring
I never liked it anyway

In fact you can keep everything yeah, yeah
Except for me



This is the part of me
No
Away from me
No
This is the part of me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me...
No
Throw your sticks and your stones, throw your bombs and your blows
But you’re not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no